at this moment, absolutely early in the morning ... it hit me, that i'm tired of trying to impress everyone i know. most of all, tired of impressing myself and pushing myself into something i'm not. when i got trapped in this stage of strive, i'm not so happy. i lost my grip, and ugghhhhh, it hurts.

*looking up at the sky, searching for your own star, the one that you know it's where you came from. dreaming of home, dreaming of dreams, dreaming of love. then you realized, what you so called home is so far beyond what you can see, beyond the things that you can reach. and you thought you've lost it, you've lost your home and now your feeling lonely. you've lost your dreams, and your fighting for a new hope in believing. you've lost your love, when the real thing might be just around the corner. so ironic, yet so real.

man!!! i need a shot in the neck*!

*shot in the neck : consume alcoholic drink.